Since I started this blog, I've had a lot of ups and downs. I allowed those ups and downs to run my life, consume me, and distract me. I even felt a little funny when I suggested my blog read to others, that they would get a little nervous that I might mention them in my blog.
When I first started this blog, it was my goal to be selfish. Share what I had been through or was going through, or what was on my mind. This is about me. It's my own very personal therapy. I am not out to hurt others. I said from the beginning if I blog and use someone's name, it's because I have asked and received their permission. Otherwise, I don't use their names. I used my late aunt's name because I truly believe she would approve of this. She was a very strong and opinionated woman. I see so much of myself in her. With that said, I am going to try to move things forward. Start focusing on what makes me happy, and writing does make me happy.
I took a job with a very busy firm. For about the first 2 months I felt like maybe I fit in. Then the next 7 months I've been on eggshells. I got written up for the first time ever on a job. Not because I putting anyone at risk, but because I stepped on someone's toes. Someone in a superior position than I, and someone younger than my son. It was all down hill from there. On Friday, I was let go. I was told it was for financial reasons, and it was done in a pleasant and professional way. I was even told I might get called back if things pick up. I don't think so. I had been thinking for a while. I have to do what is right for me. Things that are less stressful to me and things that I love. Of course if I could write and make money at it, I would! I am looking for a new job, but I am also going to focus on my writing.
I have talked some of my son Ryan, in my earlier blogs. I really haven't gone in depth about his diagnosis of Asperger's Syndrome, Bi-Polar Disorder, and other things. A long with this blog, I have decided to start a blog about mine and Ryan's journey. It comes with Ryan's blessings, because he will be a part of it. We are trying to come up with a name. Ryan says, he has to have his say, as he is a part of me, which makes him smart and a writer just like me. He's got a good point there! lol I love my kid......
So once again...... I hope you come along with me on this journey and that journey. You who follow me, inspire me. Thank you!